Blood, Sweat, Tears, and Soap?

The kids like to bring me presents while I grate soap hence the shoe and dog toys.... LOL

I've been selling hand made laundry soap as a fundraiser for our adoption for a few months now. It's been a HUGE success and is really helping me get my frustrations out via grater. You have to grate the Fels Naptha soap before you can mix all the ingredients together. So today as I was grating away praying and thinking about my baby I did it. I lost control of the Fels Naptha and next thing I know my secret ingredient to any good soap (blood) was starting to show it's awful presence. So, I go over to the sink and start trying to wash the soap off (soap+scrape=OWWWWWWW) and the tears started streaming. Not because I was in pain. Not because the soap stung in my torn skin. But because this whole process is so overwhelming, from the very beginning "can we really do this" to the "we've got a homestudy scheduled?!?!!!!" moments. It finally all burst out in one big ball of bawling adult.

Then I thought about how our baby is going to have lots of emotional "Fels Naptha accidents." He'll have gone through lots of hurt in his little life and God has entrusted us with putting a band-aid of love over his scars. So, subsequently, I went from bawling like a baby to smiling at the thought of loving over the hurts that sweet baby is going to have.

Of course the daycare kids were looking at me like I had lost my mind completely finally. So that was interesting. The minute I stopped crying they both starting bawling, that meant ONE THING!!! NAP TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just thought I would share :)