Should not be like this this early on in our journey. I feel like I have a cloud looming over me. We have our home study SCHEDULED and now I am freaking out. We don't have a bath tub (I KNOW) and I am pretty certain our windows are not up to fire code. If we need to remedy those two situations we will be spending THOUSANDS of dollars... Oh did I mention our neighbor tore down part of his fence that was around his pond, for no reason, and has no plans of putting it back up? That mean we'll need to put up a fence more than likely.
I think that my biggest fear is our social worker coming to our house and seeing the fence missing and looking at the pond and saying "oh, you'll need a fence." My heart will sink. We can't afford a fence, a bathroom renovation, and bigger windows!
I guess I was due a vent post and I feel much better now that my problems are put into words. I know God has his plans and maybe this will all work out. Maybe we'll meet a fencing guy who will do all the work and supplies for cheap/free, maybe we won't need a bathtub to pass the homestudy (I still think I am gonna want one when we bring home a toddler), perhaps our windows are just fine.
But it is all up in the air and I don't work well when things are up in the air. I am a list person. I am a consistency driven individual and am living in a journey where there is no consistency. So bear with me the next few years as we traverse this rocky road. Cause if the last few weeks are any indication I will be capital C CRAZY. (also keep Kevin in your prayers cause he has to live with me! LOL)
Here's a couple of the other reason I am worried about our homestudy:
I dunno, I spose we'll find out soon. In the mean time things might get interesting around here...
As always be praying for our child's birth family. Where they are may be safe and that they may be able to emotionally handle the gift they are about to give us!
<3
I think that my biggest fear is our social worker coming to our house and seeing the fence missing and looking at the pond and saying "oh, you'll need a fence." My heart will sink. We can't afford a fence, a bathroom renovation, and bigger windows!
I guess I was due a vent post and I feel much better now that my problems are put into words. I know God has his plans and maybe this will all work out. Maybe we'll meet a fencing guy who will do all the work and supplies for cheap/free, maybe we won't need a bathtub to pass the homestudy (I still think I am gonna want one when we bring home a toddler), perhaps our windows are just fine.
But it is all up in the air and I don't work well when things are up in the air. I am a list person. I am a consistency driven individual and am living in a journey where there is no consistency. So bear with me the next few years as we traverse this rocky road. Cause if the last few weeks are any indication I will be capital C CRAZY. (also keep Kevin in your prayers cause he has to live with me! LOL)
Here's a couple of the other reason I am worried about our homestudy:
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| Kimby who is the 80 pound lap dog/curious hound |
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| Hank is still adjusting to life in a home with 2 brothers |
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| Dingo is a licker. He especially likes baby mouths |
As always be praying for our child's birth family. Where they are may be safe and that they may be able to emotionally handle the gift they are about to give us!
<3
Kitchen sinks work fine for toddler bathing! God's got the rest of it!
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