Being a Christian is a huge part of who I am. I try to make every decision in my life in regards to what the Bible teaches. Recently I have been tested in this. There are days when I feel like nothing I do is going to matter. Days when the "what ifs" of international adoption get a hold of me. Those days when I wonder if this journey we are on will ever have an end point. Today was one of those days.
It was a worry day. I worried about the home study, attachment, breast feeding (post to come on that bombshell right there), money, money, and oh money. Then I remembered the sermon from church on Sunday. We finished up the sermon on the mount, Matthew 5, 6, and 7. He suggested we read those three chapters as often as possible and to live by them in turn. I did read those three chapters last night. I read the words Jesus spoke about not worrying. Yet here I am, worrying. After I had this realization I took some time to pray it out. I had a heart to heart with my maker and came out on the other side feeling motivated and encouraged that this would all come together. And together it came!
Last night I posted our coffee fund raiser on a Facebook page for our area "classifieds" where people post stuff for sale and advertise their businesses. Right when I got done praying I went to the computer and as a last resort hold on my independence checked our fund raising websites. There in the "orders" column were three names I did not recognize. Three complete strangers bought coffee in support of our adoption. I was blown away at how God can use an innocent by stander for His will. Those people who bought that coffee reminded me of how I just needed to trust God. Give ALL my decisions to Him and trust he will guide me in the correct direction.
So, I am telling you here and now. This crazy, messy, unorganized life will be guided by God.
It was a worry day. I worried about the home study, attachment, breast feeding (post to come on that bombshell right there), money, money, and oh money. Then I remembered the sermon from church on Sunday. We finished up the sermon on the mount, Matthew 5, 6, and 7. He suggested we read those three chapters as often as possible and to live by them in turn. I did read those three chapters last night. I read the words Jesus spoke about not worrying. Yet here I am, worrying. After I had this realization I took some time to pray it out. I had a heart to heart with my maker and came out on the other side feeling motivated and encouraged that this would all come together. And together it came!
Last night I posted our coffee fund raiser on a Facebook page for our area "classifieds" where people post stuff for sale and advertise their businesses. Right when I got done praying I went to the computer and as a last resort hold on my independence checked our fund raising websites. There in the "orders" column were three names I did not recognize. Three complete strangers bought coffee in support of our adoption. I was blown away at how God can use an innocent by stander for His will. Those people who bought that coffee reminded me of how I just needed to trust God. Give ALL my decisions to Him and trust he will guide me in the correct direction.
So, I am telling you here and now. This crazy, messy, unorganized life will be guided by God.
127 Unless the Lord builds the house,
ReplyDeletethose who build it labor in vain.
Unless the Lord watches over the city,
the watchman stays awake in vain.
2 It is in vain that you rise up early
and go late to rest,
eating the bread of anxious toil;
for he gives to his beloved sleep.
3 Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord,
the fruit of the womb a reward.
4 Like arrows in the hand of a warrior
are the children[a] of one's youth.
5 Blessed is the man
who fills his quiver with them!
He shall not be put to shame
when he speaks with his enemies in the gate.